I finally got the pics up on Flickr, today. I was trying to get a pic of her two toofies, so it's a lot of close-ups while she's eating Cheerios and laughing at my dad. She's a cutie, though, so they're not painful to peruse.
Today, I got to go run errands with Mom while Dad watched Eis. I got all her food ready and told him when she would need to go back down for a nap and we headed out. We went to Home Goods, Sams, Specs, and Crate & Barrel.
At Home Goods, my mom returned a comforter and we perused the children's things. I find I am more inspired by regular furniture, than kids' furniture. I was talking about getting furniture for Eis because she will obviously need some and I said I'd like something inexpensive, it doesn't matter what color or finish it is cause I can paint it and I am just concerned with the overall shape of it. It's very difficult for her (and my dad) to imagine pieces and everything not being so conservative and boring.
Next, we went to Specs and she returned a bottle of wine and bought me a moscato! Yum! We ran into Sams, next door, for more diapers. Along with diapers, we bought some rice rusks, a Dr. Seuss book, and some baby foods, in case I am low on the homemade stuff.
When we finished, it was raining again, so I ran to get the car. We loaded up, then drove up north to Crate & Barrel. There's so much in that store that I like, but it's so expensive. I remember how I thought it was pricey when both Ty and I had jobs. Now, I think the prices are even more insane. (I hate not making money. ) Anyway, there was a beautiful duvet cover on clearance and my mom bought it for me because it would go perfectly in our Paris room. She also bought me a tea diffuser, since I didn't have a good one for my loose tea.
Eis was a wreck when we got home. My dad didn't put her down when I said, so she was too tired when she went down, and thus only slept 25 minutes. She was up for about 45 before I put her down again. It took 30 minutes before she fell asleep and slept 35 minutes, but it was enough to get her through the evening.
My mom rented two DVDs from RedBox and she got Abducted for me -- as per my request. It was pretty good. I think Taylor Lautner will improve with age. He could be the next big action star. He is certainly attractive and has all the moves, but I think he was trying too hard in this movie. It was like he was thinking that this was his first big role outside the vampire/wolf movies. He was convincing at moments, but he needed work overall.
He is actually better in the vampire movies. I didn't realize he was a karate champion though; it explains the dropkick. I don't know why, but I find it incredibly sexy when a man dropkicks another man. Sheesh! I also am disturbed at how attractive I find Taylor Lautner to be... he's so young. And those eyes! There should be a warning sign for those bedroom eyes. Goodness.
Though, perhaps the attraction is amplified by the fact that I haven't seen my husband in almost TEN months. People don't realize how long we go without seeing our spouses. If women thought about how much their baby ages in 10 months, then they might -- maybe -- have an understanding. However, they would also think, "Well, those 10 months flew by, so it can't be that bad." But if I told them that they could not see their baby for those 10 months, then I would imagine it would feel like a lifetime.
That is exactly what it feels like. A lifetime. Every. Other. Year. And knowing what you're "getting into" doesn't make it any easier and it certainly doesn't mean I either deserve it or am ok with it. You can't help who you fall in love with, but you better know damn well that both you and your love (the feeling/bond, not spouse... though, the spouse should know, too) are strong enough to handle that kind of stress.
Being apart is not bad. If Tyler were in another state or someplace not being shot at where every citizen is seemingly a lunatic, then it would be easier. It is the constant fear and anxiety of wondering and worrying and praying that they'll come back to you.
What if they don't? You can't help but wonder.
However, what if they do?
What will they have seen? Felt? Dealt with?
How will things be the same?
How will they be different?
Will he talk to you? Can you bridge the gap... again.
I'm looking forward to a couple years where he won't deploy. He will need the time home to recharge and we will need it to become a family.
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