Day Four

Woke up at 0645 to take the folks to the airport.  Luckily I was able to come home and sleep a bit longer with few disturbances.  I woke at 1045 and registered with Tricare online and found a new dentist, all of which took a surprising two hours.

At around 1300 I went out back and got PUck and myself set up for a few hours by the pool.  I find it so odd that he refuses to drink water outside... even if it's from inside!  I swam some laps and did some kicks until I just got bored and decided to dry off and go inside.

After that, we watched two recorded episodes of So You Think You Can Dance and ate some salad.  Around 1900 Martha arrived and we chatted and I showed her the nursery.  We later watched Covert Affairs, which I'd never seen before and isn't too bad.

I emailed Ty today because I miss him and haven't heard from him.  I assume he'll check his work email at some point eventually.  I know he's fine and super busy, but that doesn't make me miss him any less.

It's crazy to think how much happens in twelve months.  Just looking at pictures of Puck from Ty's homecoming to now... He's gotten little grey hairs all over his muzzle and eyebrows.  He's not old enough for my to worry about him dying, but he may do something dangerous enough... eating that fishhook last time was cutting it pretty close, if I do say so.

I used to imagine my future and how it would unfold and what everything would be like, but once you marry a military man that habit goes out the window.  Ty asked me where I want to go next and when I want another kid and where I'd like to retire, but I can't imagine those things.  I was only able to say, "Let's get you home from this deployment first, then we can see what's next."

Perhaps it's hard cause I never really imagined us with kids, since that was always up in the air, too.  As much as I don't want to be preggo again, it seems wrong to deny Ty the opportunity to be able to be at the birth of one of his children and we all know it won't be this one. I just hope he's able to Skype and my sweet mom doesn't get in the way.

I wish I could get a massage right now.  I was promised massages, but it never came to fruition since I didn't want to get one in Killeen and I didn't want to be away from Ty for an unnecessary hour.  I remember two Decembers ago, he was home on EML...  he laid down on the bed in his PJs and I wanted to be close, so I laid directly on top of him, but lower so my head could be on his chest and we fell asleep and didn't move the whole night.  We laughed when we woke up because we hadn't meant to fall asleep -- we weren't even "in" the bed, but on it... not to mention in theory it seems like an incredibly uncomfortable way to sleep.

I will miss our time together and just being silly and laughing, but I know it'll be interesting with a baby, too.

Until I see him again, I'm one of those crazy phone people who will never let their phone out of their physical grasp or sight.  I love hearing his voice and our chats.