My concern is, of course, my back. If this baby can cause permanent damage, then doesn't that constitute as a medical necessity for a C-Section? I really can't afford to have MORE permanent damage to my back.
Why would she want to induce, if I am low on the Bishop scale and thus more likely to need a CS if I were to be induced?
How do they know my due date is the 27th? I know they judged by the size of the fetus, but my baby is on the "small" side of things, anyway... and I could swear my period should have been on the 15th of October. Does it make a difference if they're a week or two off?
I'm in so much pain with my back. I can't walk, sit, stand, or lie down without it feeling like my bones are just going to break apart. I've not had to just "deal with" back pain in ages... especially not this severe and where I've had surgery. Previous back pain (in England) that I "dealt with" felt more muscular, this feels straight up like my bones are being ruined as the hours tick by. It makes me want to take a zanaflex soooooo bad because it's not helpful enough to just cry. Crying doesn't make the pain go away.
As far as a CS goes, I am not sure that I have a preference as to how this baby comes out... I think a CS would be less damaging to my back, but not as "good" for the baby. With CS, we could skype before and after, but, obviously you wouldn't be able to see them performing it -- I think I'd be in another room... but we'd have more of a scheduled time to skype and there'd be less of a chance of Ty missing it. But with a VD, if I got ahold of Ty, then he'd be there through the delivery. I am almost 100% sure that if I did a VD, then I would never have another kid again just due to the stress it puts on my back.
I spent FIVE HOURS doing FRG emails and fixing rosters. I can't believe this is a "volunteer" position. Considering I can't sit in any position for longer than 60 seconds, I feel like I should get paid when sitting for five hours. Kastl is the best Co-Leader. I love her and am so thankful she's helping. Her husband needs to know how much easier and more better-fied that woman is making my life. Yay Kastls!!
I took a nap while waiting to see if Ty's internet would come back on... it didn't. I tried getting in the pool. I was just as uncomfortable there. I installed my shower head in my shower, so that' a plus... Oh yeah -- the whole "hot bath" thing was a terrible idea. It's so painful to lay on a hard surface and it's even harder to get up! I didn't even want to hunt for Benadryl after that ordeal.
I showered with my improved shower and then watched two episodes of Royal Pains on my parents' computer because it's bigger than mine.
We watched SYTYCD from last night and Covert Affairs from Tuesday, then I came to my room. Mom gave me a back rub, then I sat down on the floor to write Ty an email. I have to rock side to side to prevent the pain from shooting down my legs, but nothing is preventing it from giving me a splitting headache. I think I should go to sleep because I am miserable.
So miserable. I miss Ty and want to talk to him so bad and hear his voice... it at least helps lower the intensity of the pain because my mind is occupied...
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