Day 97: Homebody

I can't really remember this morning.  Hoorah for sleep deprivation!

I remember I made eggs.  I put dried, chopped onions in them, which I liked when I was preggo... it doesn't taste so good now.  I was pretty grossed out, but I ate them, since I went to the trouble of making them.

I also made hummingbird food.  I made 16 cups of it and a fairly medium-sized mess :-o

I do remember one thing, but it's not a good thing.  I've come to dread afternoons -- particularly from 1300 to 1600.  Afternoons used to be the best part of the day because I'd get to talk to Tyler.  I still get to talk to him, but it's gone from a noonish chat to anytime between 1300 and 1600 -- usually around 1430.  Now I am not a huge fan of the afternoons because I find I hit a wall around 1300.
I then debate whether to nap or not.  Will I hear from Ty sooner? or later?  Will he text as soon as I fall asleep?  Should I just try to wait?  Will Eisley continue to sleep?  Will she wake up when I finally pass out?

It's all these concerns that keep me from napping.  Then if I do fall asleep or get almost there and I do hear from Ty, I don't always enjoy talking to him as much as I want to and would otherwise.  Today he said he was going to sleep and I was happy cause I was about to pass out, but then he asked me a few questions and the delay in responses irritated me cause I was so tired.  Then when he did go to sleep, I couldn't sleep and Eisley woke up by the time I got sleepy again.

His new and unimproved schedule (later nights) makes for terrible timing.  Unfortunately, I know his schedule can't change to accommodate my exhaustion and I can't not be tired -- at least not for a long time.  I keep praying for more patience and I've gotten some, but I still need more.  I think it would help me to not be so selfish and better appreciate getting to talk to Ty when I can.  I've already said that I get depressed when I don't get to talk to him, so I can't forego our chats in favor of naps.  Plus, I don't want to beat myself up if I miss a chance to talk or am short and stressy when I do talk to him and don't get another chance.

Hopefully I can do better.

On another note, Eisley has had her diaper changed FOUR times since 2100... that's two hours! Ugh.  I am spending $22 per WEEK on diapers!  That comes out to about $1150 on just diapers in one year.  That means we need to pray harder to get out from under this house.  

I'm still waiting to hear back from the rental agency.  Jessica told me who to email and that they charge 9% of the rental cost.  I wonder which company Billy, James, and Jason use...  I wonder what percentage they pay the agency...

I best try to sleep while Eisley is down.  I'll bet I've got between an hour and three to sleep before I'll be called back to the nursery.