Eisley slept for five hours last night (2345-0445), then from 0600-0900 this morning. I'm not holding my breath for a third repeat performance, though it would be nice. Someday...
She's really having trouble letting herself go to sleep tonight. I've been at it for at least two hours. Now she must cry for at least 10 minutes to release her "stress" so she can relax and go to sleep... who doesn't love to sit and listen to screaming for what feels like forever?!
Four minutes down...
This morning was spent getting parcels ready to mail out. I got my surprise (small) box ready to mail to Tyler, while my mom got her stuff ready. When Eisley woke up from her nap, I fed her, changed her, then got ready and we headed out for the afternoon.
We first went to the post office, which was closed because of the holiday weekend, apparently. We were surprised, along with many other patrons who'd stopped by to mail things. Luckily, there's an automated system at our post office, so everyone else's things could be sent... just not my box for Ty. I'll have to wait until Tuesday... boo for customs.
Next, we stopped by Starbucks, which was nice. It'd been a month since I'd had any! Eisley was still asleep, despite being taken in and out of the wrap and car-seat, twice! We relaxed inside Starbucks for a bit, since it was calm and cool in there.
Then we got in the car and headed out toward the Galleria. We had to stop by Petsmart to refill Puck's thyroid meds. They only gave me a month's supply, since he needs to have his levels checked. I'll have to make an appointment to see the doctor sometime in September. That should be a good trip with a baby and a dog or perhaps just a dog and a parent at home to babysit...
While at Petsmart, Eisley woke up and peed and therefore began crying. My mom took her to the car to change her while I waited for the pills, then checked out at the front. I bought dental stuff for Bub and I bought poop bags to keep in the diaper bag for safekeeping of dirty diapers -- clever, I know!
We drove a couple stores down and my mom went in World Market, while I stayed in the car and let Eisley nurse, as she was hungry, even though she ate right before we left home only an hour-ish prior. Eventually, my mom came back and we drove over to the Galleria so she could look at some shoes. Eisley was again asleep in the wrap and in the car-seat as we went home.
Once home, I heated my leftovers from Mimi's and ate while my dad held Eisley before they went to dinner. It was only 1645, but I was hungry and I wasn't sure if I'd have time later.
FYI: Eisley finally got her fidgets out and passed out... I think it was 10ish minutes of crying, then four of relaxing and going to sleep.
Anyway... After I ate, I let Eis nurse and then she went to sleep for three hours. I watched tv, despite being tired. She was in the swing in the living room for her nap and I didn't want to sleep on the couch and I knew she'd wake up if I moved her.
She woke up around 2015 and after I let her nurse, then changed her four times, read her a book, sang her a song, and walked around with her, she's fallen asleep... it only took... three hours?! Sheesh. I don't know how I got off with my time... well, I guess an hour was nursing and changing and reading. It was two hours of actively trying to get her to go to sleep.
Let's just hope she stays asleep for at least three hours. Three is what I pray for at night... anything over that is just a blessing and not to be taken for granted.
I did get to chat with Ty for a bit today. It was nice. It's really hard for me to go for days without getting to have a decently real conversation. I know he gets in late and needs to sleep, which is why we don't get to chat, but it doesn't make it any easier. I'm much calmer overall when we can chat. I can now empathize with my elementary students with deployed parents... You don't think your whole demeanor is based on whether you've spoken to your loved one, but apparently it does and it can get ugly. Poor kids... poor me.
While I was chatting with Ty, his net kept going out and I'd send a message, then get another text saying he was offline. I don't like having the "he's offline" texts in my inbox, so I delete them after they come. However, I accidentally deleted all my messages back and forth with Ty for the past three months, instead of the "he's offline" messages. I was quite distraught and pissed off with myself. I thought I'd done that back in July and could have killed myself for being so careless, but I hadn't made that mistake, so I promised myself I'd be slower and more careful. Apparently I didn't tell myself how long I'd be slow and careful. It's comforting to have all his messages and texts because (as horrible as it is...) I never know if what I hear from him will be the last thing I hear from him and I want to have it all, just in case of the worst.
I think positive thoughts and imagine him home and pray for his safety, but I'm a realist, too, so I can't overlook the fact that he is at war. For a year. Around bullets. And rockets. And other explosives. So I have to be both optimistic, yet realistic cause I don't want to kick myself for being only optimistic if something happened and I didn't have everything possible to remind myself -- and Eisley -- of him.
Well, Eis is out, so I'm off to sleep. Pray for five. And for our house to sell. And for Ty.
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