I am in serious need for more lidocaine in my traps. All this fussy baby business has really kinked up my back. I have another appointment on Monday -- hopefully he'll be able to oblige me.
Holy crap. I'm officially dumb. Hopefully, it's the lack of sleep that's compounding my mommy-brain, but I forgot how to spell "oblige." It was so bad that I couldn't even use the dictionary to help myself. I apparently forgot that 'o' is a letter...
Anyway... tonight I had to let Eis cry for 10 minutes and put on my headphones. She didn't sleep well last night and she didn't nap much today, so it was a rough evening. Dad tried to help a lot, but he was getting frustrated, too. He was determined to be successful and for the most part, he was, but she would shriek if he put her down. I finally had to say, "Just go watch tv. I'm going to give her 10 minutes to cry."
It worked. I came in after 10 minutes and she was awake, but calm and heading off to sleep. Thank goodness!
I've spent some time going through my Zumba stuff trying to remember routines. It's harder for the ones I made up. I really should write down the moves or video them so I don't forget in the future. I will teach three routines tomorrow and want to have good ones. I'm so bored with Sabrina's routines. We have done the exact same last routine since my first class. I understand why the ladies like when I teach.
I have to make sure Eis looks supercute tomorrow, since we're going to Heights. I'm going to stop by the field before the game starts and see Daniela and the cheerleaders, then I'm going to the FRG meeting, but I won't stay for much of the social, since it will have already been a long day and I'll still have to drive home to Austin.
On another note: I've been missing England a lot recently. As hard as that job was, I was better than everyone else at it and it was certainly a challenge. I loved my flat, despite it being cold and crazy. I loved being within walking distance of everything and never having to drive anywhere.
I think if I had appropriate spine and back care while I was there, I would not have come home. I was in complete agony and it put a damper on everything because I couldn't sit, stand, or walk without agony. I got to travel all over and go wherever I wanted whenever I wanted. I could catch a train and have dinner in London. I could decide to travel to another country, then just see who wanted to go with me. I had plenty of money, even with the travel and shopping. I was in great shape because I walked everywhere.
If I could teach at a good school, teach Zumba, and have my back not hurt, then I would do great there. I love being places that are so... endless. There was just always something I could do. I enjoyed going to the pub after work on Fridays with co-workers. I adored being surrounded by a different culture.
The only downsides were the stalker, the chav-extreme school, and the debilitating pain. I am so thankful that I went when I did because I couldn't do any of that now. Even if Ty and I were there, we couldn't do most of the things I did because he works all the time, not to mention, we have Eisley.
I'm so independent that that was an ideal situation for me... do what I wanted when I wanted and how I wanted. I'm still independent, but it's just an aspect of myself that I can no longer access or utilize. I have to make sure I nurture Eisley's independence.
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