Day 83: No Baby, No Cry?

I woke up at about 0545 and nursed Eisley and held her until she fell asleep.  At 0630, I put her down and moment later Michelle came in to see if I could use her help.  I told her I just put Eisley down, but she was more than welcome to take her if she wanted and I'd sleep for a couple hours until she needed to nurse again.

I woke up at 0900 and Eisley wasn't in the nursery.  I walked through the kitchen, office, dining room, living room, parents' room, went out back, then checked out front, but didn't see or hear Michelle or Eisley.  It was very disconcerting to not know where my baby was.  I called my dad to see if they went somewhere, but he was golfing and told me Michelle took Eis into her room, but I hadn't seen any lights or anything.  I decided to shower and be ready to feed her because I knew she'd be up soon.

I was in the shower when I heard her cry, so I finished as quickly as I could, then threw on my clothes because I didn't really want her to have a bottle... mainly cause my boobs hurt and I wanted to nurse.  However, when I got out to the kitchen, Michelle was already feeding her from a bottle.  I decided to pump to get some relief, though that hurts in a different kind of way, so it wasn't total relief.

We hung out in the living room and kitchen throughout the day.  It is strange to only have Eisley when she's nursing, but it makes me enjoy nursing her more.  Michelle is really great with her and I love having her help, but it feels weird to not be the one to comfort Eisley when she cries or hold her when she sleeps.  But I don't want Michelle to not get enough time with her, since she's only here for a week.  It's very conflicting feelings I'm having :(

My folks left for Conroe this evening and it's just been Michelle, Eisley, and me.  I'm so tired, but I'm not sure when to try to go to sleep.  A 2000 bedtime would feel nice, but then Michelle has nothing to do for about 10 hours.  Though now it's midnight and I've been up all day without a nap and my back and head are killing me, not to mention how tired I am.  Plus, I don't want her to give Eisley another bottle, since it takes so long to pump and I only have one feedings worth in the fridge.  I'd rather hold on to it for when we go somewhere or another morning or more of an emergency-esque situation...

sleepy + backache = I think my head my explode :(